think pink

So since yesterday I have been fearing for my life that I might have sore eyes, fortunately I went to Asian and the doctor said all I had was an eye allergy, the doctor was creepy in some sorts eckkk:| anyway, I'm just so stressed out with school and my birthday still and I do wish the shoot will be on tomorrow, not sure how my eye will be cooperative. Well lunch today was out of the ordinary or better yet weird let's just say I had those moments where I had to say "things happen for a reason"... Because my dad suggested to eat in my favorite jap place but I was REALLY HUNGRY since I woke up late and when I woke up he was like 15 mins away from my condo and about to pick me up, I didn't get the chance to take anything so it was traffic going to the jap place and I suggested that let's just find something to eat on the way, but he insisted on eating to my favorite jap place. And HE was there, HE(is this guy i keep on seeing in school, and I am not sure how It goes for me but It's just really weird I had to say)... so yeah, and our table was just right in front of them and the way the chairs were in the place was "space friendly" so to just make it short we were in one chair but with a separation in the middle, as I entered the place he gave me this stare the "I always see you, why the aslkfj are you also having lunch here stare" haha I felt cold I' don't know why HAAHA and he was rocking the chair 55 percent of the whole time.. ugh I don't even know why I am blogging about this...adsvjsndjk haha anyway, I hope my red eye goes away..oooh I also got a bowie shirt today(its for guys tho haha) and it's on sale:) I cut off the sleeves though:)) Can't wait to wear it;)

this is my overused bag of the moment:)) teehee. look how my bag is so messed up:))



I caan't open my eyes>.<



By the way I have been owning this new baby, and I am reaaly just in love with it, I chose it oveer the red BB, I guess it's self explanatory....: IT'S PINK!:) pardon my red eyes :(:) and my whole face I look really sick:|

THAT'S IT FOR NOW;)

fleeting

You think it happens often, when you meet him in the eye.
But then once you old you see that you were young and your eyes had better hopes.
People are lucky to fall in love once in their lives.

-arabella paner drunk with philosopy reporting materials, august 18,2010 2:04 am

Metanoia.

So I will be posting a work I did for lit class I got a decent mark for It and I really like it I guess;) Just so you guys know we were suppose to
make a an "unreliable character" so here it goes...

My name is Tegan I am only 17 and everyone knows that I am not capable of loving, just like my older sister Hayley. Solitary hours are spent mostly in my room, I just continously contemplate and procrastinate, just like any teenage girl I'm just young and plain. I don't know the reason behind why my heart just decided to freeze and lock up all its doors, or maybe it just didn't have doors in the first place. I guess one peculiar reason that I could come up with was that Hayley and I were part of a broken family. My dad bailed on us, my mom never seemed to care, she got on with her life, married a new guy and all else was history. I think I inherited my mother's incapability to love and to feel love. Love did not just exist for me.
havi
One time, I was lying on my bed and was staring at my brown ceiling listening to The Cure and just letting everything go inside my head. Then I heard a faint sound of giggling, Hayley. "What are you doing inside my room nuthead?, What are you holding?". Her laugh was inevitably coming out of her mouth, "I was just to borrow some of your cds when I found this!!" then a copious laughter inevitably came out of her mouth. I could not see what she was holding, a paper, that's what I am sure of. She ran downstairs and I ran after her, who knows what she was holding."Mom!look! Hayley has a boyfriend!" and with bold words she read..


July 26,2002

Lui,
I always saw the best in you, you deserve everything you aspire, you can do it I know, don't get stuck and locked up like me. This is not goodbye, this is just my way of saying I'll see you again. I am not ready to say goodbye I don't know if I would even be able to. I just wish we met at a different time of my life. Maybe by then I am capable of doing things, and things will be easier for us. Always watch out for yourself and me.

8,
tegan

Mom exclaimed "It's a love letter indeed honey!" I just stared at them and no words came out of my mouth, I don't know where that came from but I am sure it was for someone.

You are everything I wanted.

The average person takes 21,612 breaths in a day. Make them all count- tyler shields
So far I am still busy prepping for my 18th birthdahhh:) So far the venue, dress, photo and video are all set also the caterer. I'm excited at the same time just plain anxious, i wonder how it will turn out;) My gown will be from Jun Jun Cambe he's the same designer who made my prom gown and a plus is that I'll get to go to his show whenever he has a new collection bliss!:) I also got goodies(3 chain necklaces and bangles) for only 420 bucks(I'm a thrifter:D) Anyway sorry if my posts are laame but I'll update this as soon as I get the time to do so:) maybe decent posts will be coming after my birthday?:)

LSS: RIDE- Cary Brothers