Metanoia.

So I will be posting a work I did for lit class I got a decent mark for It and I really like it I guess;) Just so you guys know we were suppose to
make a an "unreliable character" so here it goes...

My name is Tegan I am only 17 and everyone knows that I am not capable of loving, just like my older sister Hayley. Solitary hours are spent mostly in my room, I just continously contemplate and procrastinate, just like any teenage girl I'm just young and plain. I don't know the reason behind why my heart just decided to freeze and lock up all its doors, or maybe it just didn't have doors in the first place. I guess one peculiar reason that I could come up with was that Hayley and I were part of a broken family. My dad bailed on us, my mom never seemed to care, she got on with her life, married a new guy and all else was history. I think I inherited my mother's incapability to love and to feel love. Love did not just exist for me.
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One time, I was lying on my bed and was staring at my brown ceiling listening to The Cure and just letting everything go inside my head. Then I heard a faint sound of giggling, Hayley. "What are you doing inside my room nuthead?, What are you holding?". Her laugh was inevitably coming out of her mouth, "I was just to borrow some of your cds when I found this!!" then a copious laughter inevitably came out of her mouth. I could not see what she was holding, a paper, that's what I am sure of. She ran downstairs and I ran after her, who knows what she was holding."Mom!look! Hayley has a boyfriend!" and with bold words she read..


July 26,2002

Lui,
I always saw the best in you, you deserve everything you aspire, you can do it I know, don't get stuck and locked up like me. This is not goodbye, this is just my way of saying I'll see you again. I am not ready to say goodbye I don't know if I would even be able to. I just wish we met at a different time of my life. Maybe by then I am capable of doing things, and things will be easier for us. Always watch out for yourself and me.

8,
tegan

Mom exclaimed "It's a love letter indeed honey!" I just stared at them and no words came out of my mouth, I don't know where that came from but I am sure it was for someone.